Alphonsine, that is such a hard life you describe and that you lived up to now. This persevering will of yours, that sprang out of it! That you "distill" hope as non-profit entrepreneur for others from the misery and pain, while engineering technical change on a global scale: Respect - all is not lost! The story is so full of bright force of will to live and spreads the joy and hope when reading. I feel proud, to be a colleague engineer of You. Keep going and tell the story like you did!